2003-06-27 - 1:09 p.m.
Just... yeah, don't...
First of all, we flubbed up. Origins is this weekend. And it's of course extremely unlikely I'll make it down then. Probably better that way anyhow -- much as I really wanted to go, I'm not sure I'm in a very good mindset for a long drive. Or for being around people. Then again, maybe I do need people. I know my roleplaying would suck right now.
And second of all -- well, second of all is something I can't talk about, because it isn't really my thing. Well, my reation to it is my thing, I guess, but I can't really explain my reaction without explaining what's going on, and that isn't my thing. Isn't my place to tell. Isn't my thing, regardless of my issues with the whole deal. Just, uhm, yeah.
Going to Amici I think. Y'know, to get my writing time in before open mike night. And maybe in the gap of time between dinner and going back for open mike... maybe I'll go and have a pint or two, and just chill with some Guinness, and pretend I'm not dwelling or anything. Head back, get lost in the music, get highly caffinated.
What is it Bob (my foreman) says? "I'll be alright in a week or ten days -- just don't ask the doctor, he might say something different." Not the most accurate statement just now, but something.
There's three people I could probably talk to about this. Two of them already know, at least part of it, but they've got other stuff going on this weekend, and so even if I could be in touch with them about it, it wouldn't be worth bothering. And the other hasn't heard about any of it yet, but eventually will, just because I think she'd be easy to talk to about it. 'Cause, y'know, she's just easy to talk to in general. But I don't have much in the way of ready contact info for her, so unless I run into 'er online by chance this weekend, that's a bust too. *ticks off on fingers* Amanda, Talcott, Gella -- yeah, those'd be them. (See Brian? I didn't leave that all vagued up. See, I'm trying to break as much of that habit as I can reasonably -- especially since in general this is something I can't unvague any more than saying "It's not my thing to talk about" and whatnot.)
Anyhow, writing drawn out diary entries in which I can't give anything similar to specifics isn't really helping my campaign of denial/avoidance until I've figured out how to deal with this. If that doesn't sound particularly healthy, I'm sorry. But it's the best you're going to get just now.
I'm off to the coffee shop now, I think. Have a splendid weekend everyone.
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