2003-10-21 - 10:34 p.m.
lyrical cop-out, again
Another cop-out entry. Song lyrics again.
I spent all weekend trying to download the song "One Thing" by finger eleven. Could not get a playable file. Broke down yesterday and bought a damned CD. I now have many tracks I did not care about, just so I can listen to this song whenever I please.
It fits my mood now, sort of. I'm not going to go into details, because as usual I think most of it lacks words. And sadly posting the lyrics won't help a lot, since a lot of it is in the melody for me in this case. But oh well.
(Incidentally, the second and last "stanzas" here are chorus-like, and repeated in several combinations toward the end of the song. I'm too lazy just now to not cut-and-paste from a lyrics site.
"One Thing"
Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something
I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time
Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds
Anyway, I'm going to start obsessively listening to this song again, now. While I try to discover enough of the nature of this funk that I might be able to break free of it.
The problem is that I need to find a way to successfully disallow myself to feel. I feel too much. And I can't-or-won't let myself give into the outlets that are most natural. Because that's too exposing. And/or too dangerous/frightening. But it hurts to stem it off, too.
Don't mind me. I'm rambling. Sure sign I need to be putting the music on.
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